Going forwards

We could delve into all of the hurt we have caused each other and we could get angry and point fingers and blame but I'm afraid that would only succeed at furthering the pain. Going forward I think that we should take our time and advance with caution and wisdom. I have learned my lessons just as you have learned yours. And I truly do believe that we are both very quick learners. I do not wish to ever hurt you again like this, and so I won't. I will be extremely careful and observant and I will make certain that I stay true to you in ever manner of speaking and I believe that you will do the same. You have seen my most evil parts and my most good parts and you've seen the parts that are beyond those words. And so I am yours to judge not in my worth alone, only I can judge that, but in my worth for you. It is up to you to decide now whether or not this is what you want. Because we both know what this is. This is real, and raw, and important, and dangerous, but oh so wonderful. It can be wonderful anyways, so long as we proceed with caution like we have planned to. I have made my choice abundantly clear. I choose you. You, Zoë Hughes. The only girl I can see. You are so beautiful, and so kind at your core, and you have so much love inside of you. And you have a dark side as well, but compared to the goodness in you, the bad seems to disappear. I do truly think you're perfect Zoë. I know that you can't see it, but I do. I look at all of you and it's perfect. That's one of the only words I can think of to describe it. I know that you will make the right choice for you, and that is all I want. Because you absolutely deserve what's best for you. And I want you to want that more than anything else. And of course I'll wait for you to decide and hope that it is me. I love you endlessly. Truly endlessly. It breaks free of all there is and achieves whatever the word "everything" attempts to describe. I will always regret all of the times I have hurt you so goddam much. If you let me, I will show you that I am better than all of that. So much better. I am the best me when I'm with you and we're happy. And I want to continue to be that for as much of the rest of my life as possible. I hope that you choose me, I hope to god I'm what you want. But I want you to choose what you want no matter what. And just so you know, no matter what, it will be okay.