For you

       I know going away is selfish. I know that starting all of this again last winter was selfish. But also it's not. Because it's all for you. I'm here in France for you. Well, us. I'm here for us. For our future together that I know we can have. I want it so badly. More than anything in the whole world. I know that me leaving doesn't seem like it's for us but I assure you that it is. I know that we can make this work long distance. And it's only for small chunks. I still get to see you. And next year I'll be a hell of a lot closer and it will be easier. I'm here for our future. I know it's hard right now but it will pay off. I keep saying that but it's because it's an important thing for us to keep in mind. I'm here to work hard so we can have a good easy life together without worries. That's all I want. That's all I want in the whole world. I'm not sure if that makes a whole lot of sense, it's sort of a giant leap between points. But there is a plan. We're not leaping into the dark. I mean even if it was a leap into the dark I would take it if it meant that I could have a chance for a life with you. This whole thing seems unfair right now. But it's not actually unfair. Four years apart in exchange for a lifetime of waking up with you seems like the deal of the century to me. I would actually pay anything to wake up next to you for the rest of my life and walk away knowing that I got the better end of the deal. So it will do more than even out. We have the good end of the deal here. And who knows if it will even be four years. It could be shorter. And it's not even four years as a whole. Its split up. But we have a plan. It's not like we're fighting a never ending battle. It's just these four years where were physically apart, but you're still here with me. You're still here to motivate me and comfort me. And I'm still here for you. I'll always be here for you. And you still make everything important. We can do it!! People and do this all the time and if anyone can do this we can. It's us. It's always been us and  it's you and me forever. I just know it. Even when I worry I still know that it's you and me forever. Sometimes it's hard to see how we could know if this is forever, but we always manage to remind each other of how if one of us forgets. And so I'll keep reminding you as much as I can. Through texts, through posts, through letters, through anything that I can. I'll do anything for you. And anything for us. Because those two things right there, those two things are the most important things in the whole wide world.